Change is in the air

There is change in the air. I have been feeling it for a couple of months now and am just wondering how this is going to manifest itself. It is a weird feeling knowing something big is coming along. Like seeing headlights off in the distance on a dark road - not sure of how far away it is but at some point it is going to crash right into you.

A couple of months ago I had a time period where I felt nothing. Literally nothing. I would lay in bed analyzing my body just laying there feeling nothing. Emotionally at that time I felt no future, could see no future. I wouldn't necessarily call this a depression - I have been there before - this was a feeling that I have never in my life felt. Then one day, weeks later, I woke up and felt. Felt like I have never felt before. A change had happened and a significant one. My outlook on life had changed - my hope had changed - I even physically didn't have the same problems I had before, for example, my stomach no longer constantly hurt.

I have talked this over with several people and trying to see the reasoning, trying to understand the significance of this change. No one seems to be able to explain why it happened but the significance is not lost. The general concensus - something big is coming.

I am on this road and I am along for the ride - there is no turning back now. What I have realized, I am no longer speeding down this road. I am allowing myself to take in the scenery - to be an active participant in my life. I have begun allowing people in and have come to realize that I am not on this journey alone. Who knows when this event will happen but, I am not scared. I can't wait for it to happen but I am allowing it to happen in its own time.

Everything in its own time...